‘I Don’t Know What My Pant Size Is’: Kesha Details ‘Beautiful’ Recovery From Eating Disorder

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Kesha opened up about the “beautiful” healing process she’s undergone since she sought treatment for her eating disorder.The pop star, 36, explained that the first step was checking into rehab in 2014 for an inpatient program to treat her bulimia. “I had a particular moment with my eating disorder when the anxiety just got so high that I was not functioning,” she recalled in an interview with Self published on Tuesday, June 20. “It was taking up so much of my brain space, from morning to night.

I was obsessed with what I looked like, what went in my mouth, what size things were and people’s approval.”After working with therapists and establishing new routines, however, Kesha said she’s no longer worried about the things that gave her so much anxiety in the past.“No one could have told me this 10 years ago, but … freedom from that obsession is there,” she explained. “It takes work to get there.

But sitting here knowing that I don’t count any calories, I don’t know what my pant size is and I don’t weigh myself is so beautiful.”While Kesha has developed a reputation over the years as a party girl, she noted that her pre-show rituals would likely shock fans who remember her only as the woman who sang about brushing her teeth with a bottle of Jack.“I always have three meal breaks, ’cause being in recovery, I need to have time to sit and have a meal,” she told Self of her tour routine. “I have about 30 minutes before I go on stage where I meditate, stretch and do breathing exercises.

People probably think I’m back there doing shots, and [my routine is] the most zen s–t you’ve ever seen.”When she’s at home, she takes time to enjoy her food, shopping for ingredients at the farmers market and cooking for fun.Kesha has been candid