Lily Allen talks going into “self-hatred spiral”, feeling “ashamed” of lack of education

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Lily Allen has discussed the topic of education, and admitted that she can go into a “self-hared spiral” over her lack of qualifications.The pop singer opened up about her lack of traditional academic education while on the latest instalment of her Miss Me?

podcast – which she hosts with her longtime friend and radio host Miquita Oliver.During the episode, the two got onto the theme of intelligence, which led to the ‘Smile’ singer admitting that she still feels self-conscious about leaving school at age 15, without having any academic qualifications under her belt.“I’m not educated,” she said. “I left school when I was 15 and I don’t even have one GCSE, not one qualification, and I am ashamed of it.”She also recalled how she can get lost in a “self-hatred spiral” about the topic – namely when she hears other people talk about going to university.Co-host Oliver went on to question if more degrees or qualifications would actually make a difference to either of them at this point in time, to which Allen added that she may not have returned to the music industry if she had other options available.This, she said, arose particularly after she suffered the stillbirth of her son, George, in 2010.“I would have thought, I’m actually gonna go and be a lawyer [for instance],” she explained. “I really wanted to go into midwifery or obstetrics because that was something that really interested me, but because I didn’t have any diplomas in GCSEs or A Levels it seemed too difficult, too much.

I was too lazy.“And actually too embarrassed… I thought I’d have to go and do my A Levels with a bunch of 18-year-olds and I was already in my mid-thirties.