Why Jennifer Lopez finally decided to stop trying to convince the world her life with Ben Affleck is perfect

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famously like to roll the dice, once even starring in a sports-betting commercial together. But J. Lo herself has always been the disciplined, strategic workaholic not known for betting the farm on a crazy idea.Until now.The singer/actress’ sweeping, three-part paean to her lifelong search for love — and her twisty reunion and marriage to Ben Affleck 21 years after they sensationally split up three days before their first planned wedding — is dropping this month.

And some of her closest friends and business partners feared for her, at least at first.A whimsical, hourlong musical film called “This is Me Now … A Love Story“came out Friday on Prime, along with her first studio album in 10 years, “This is Me … Now,” a sequel to 2002’s “This is Me…Then.”There’s even a “Dear Ben Pt.

II,” on the new album, a sequel to the earlier album’s “Dear Ben.”Meanwhile, Feb. 27 brings a raw and candid documentary, “The Greatest Love Story Never Told,” revealing the struggle Lopez, 54, went through to make the musical film — and how she was forced to finance it with $20 million with her money after no one would pick it up and even Khloé Kardashian declined to appear in it.“I didn’t think much of myself and so the world didn’t think much of me,” Lopez says, through tears, in the documentary.

She’s speaking about how she truly felt — both as a little girl in The Bronx and well into her adult years, despite her public persona as a polished, accomplished diva who always has a man on her arm.Lopez says she felt like a forgotten middle child, ignored by a father who was always working and a “narcissistic, life of the party” mother.It was Affleck “who made me believe in myself.