Kourtney Kardashian on the End of ‘KUWTK’: ‘I Was Used to Always Being a Bitch and Having No Feelings’

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Fans of the Kardashian-Jenner family knew Kourtney Kardashian was over filming Keeping Up With the Kardashians in the final seasons, but the oldest sibling is shedding new light on why she struggled toward the end of the show’s run.“Shooting our show, it became a really toxic environment at the end for me.

I would fight with my sisters. There was, like, just a lot going on. And even for me personally, I wasn’t in the happiest place,” the 42-year-old Poosh founder said in her Bustle cover story published on Thursday, March 3. “I felt like I was being almost a character. ‘This is Kourtney, and she’s in a bad mood, so even though she was laughing really at lunch, we’re going to cut out the laughing and let’s only use the annoying comment that she said.’”Kourtney told the outlet that she would “give myself a pep talk before walking in” to film the show.“Like, say we were shooting at Khloé’s house.

I’d be like, ‘It’s going to be a good day. Let’s have a good mood. Let’s put a smile on our face,’” she explained. “I see the growth that comes from those unhappy places which make it all worth it.

I’m like, ‘If we didn’t go through these roller-coasters, you wouldn’t get to the good part.’”While the Kourtney and Kim Take New York alum took a step back from filming during seasons 18-20, she will be part of the family’s new Hulu series, simply titled The Kardashians.“Having the break shifted the mindset with my sisters,” she said. “When you’re doing that [show] every single day, you don’t have the space to take a break and be like, ‘Wait, we actually love each other.’”Still, fans weren’t convinced Kourtney was fully on board after the first promo dropped earlier this year.“It’s so funny, because there was a little tease for our new